2*10*07

Well-

this could be the worst day yet. Not that I'm in so much pain- but I swear I can't stop thinking about food. Any food. I could make a list- but that wouldn't help matters. I just had my first instance of vomitting- and it could be the worst thing ever other than getting kicked in the nuts. I don't have nuts- but I imagine these two things are very similar.

It was so painful- nothing was there to come up- but my whole body was shuttering. It was horrible. Mentally I think this has been the worst day. I'm regretting my decision- I feel like I've made a mistake- and my mom- my inspiration said to me, "too bad, too late." gotta love her.

Been trying to relax and rest but that too has been pretty painful. I've been trying to watch TV, DVD's and movies, but everything equates to food one way or another. No wonder our society has gotten outta control- we revolve around the next course.

currently I'm refusing my medication- nexium. That little purple bastard pill can kiss my ass. I had to sprinkle it on my jello- thanks to it, I can never eat black cherry jello again. And my protein drinks taste like cheap koolaid with fake sugar. ugg. for real- this is the worst day and I'm the biggest titty baby lala right now.

but I feel a little better now that I wrote some of this out.